Marilah Kita Bernikah

Current mood:scramble

“Jom kawin nak?” Whoa, probably perkataan yang straight-in-your-face yang baru pertama kali aku terima sejak 24 tahun ni. We never know our face, we just know our name. We just talk in about few minutes, belum masuk setengah jam. And she propose me, in a sudden, selepas bertanya aku ada girlfriend or not. Yes, I don’t have one. And I feel like, I never have one. Semua macam fantasi je…. the same like when she ask me , “Got someone in mind?”. Of course I have! Everytime! But not for the girl who I really mind. She’s not. I’m ignorance blissful for her. She never mind me at all. Dan kata aku: “I wish I have lots of money this time around so I could ‘pinang’ the girl in my mind, dengan pantas! But, no, I’m broke,…. so, what’s the use to kawin? It’ll never be good.” Of course, she’s teasing me. From what she said, she’s a local who now in UK, ambik medic, and soon, will work in medic. Korang mesti kata, “Hah! Dia dah ok, tak kisah la nak kawin ngan sesapa, annonymously…. tapi aku tak sure dia boleh kata, “Jom kawin?” kalau dia betul2 kenal siapa aku. No! I’m not in the middle of self-destructive pattern person. Bukan menjatuhkan harga diri. Banyak lagi yang perlu aku buat untuk achieve dream aku. Tapi secara kasarnya, untuk define aku buat masa ni, i say i am z e r o, nothing, nil, none, zilch. So, you’re Laura, and I’m Rob Gordon. You’re Japan and I am Godzilla.

Currently listening:
Let’s Get It On [Bonus Tracks]
By Marvin Gaye
Release date: 14 January, 2003

the line begins to blur

[ music | Nine Inch Nails - With Teeth ]

damn! what a sound! great songs. i just got the opportunity to LISTEN TO THE WHOLE NEW ALBUM FROM NINE INCH NAILS - WITH TEETH in myspace. i need to get the the album, when it will come out this may 3.

and comes the problem.....

...probably it will be hard to find in malaysia.

send me a copy if you can. the hardcopy. yes, i'm begging.

[p/s: this is before physical music died. so my impression is different by the time you're reading and the fact that i've watched the band live...]

everyday is holiday like monday or you.....play dead

[ mood | pleasedpleased ]
[ music | Tori Amos - "God" ]

berminat? nah! it's quite intriguing (and challenging) untuk kemaskan/rebuild balik gambar di atas, dengan resolusi teruk Friendster. at the same time, friendster come up with new blog. great, really great, when i want to talk nonsense, and monkeying around i'll go for friendster. Kamal ben Masrun like to monkeying over there on it's Bulletin Board. Is that mean i like Friendster really much? no! i go for traditional way.

It has been a nice weekend. my ftp finally running, and so Photoshop. the guy at Neo.net also told me that the scanner can be use like nothing really happen unto it's glass. Ok, you bet! We'll see, maybe we put Mesol from my sketchbook online. he never had any photo uploaded online. he just had this x-ray scanned of his body. so, i thought, "that's cool. you can put it. we can hang it on the wall. we're the most unconventional cybercafe to ever exist on planet earth!" before, the cybercafe really looks like a smokebox to us.

Stefan Jermann, a Zurich-based photographer just email me, to told me about his magazine "TRUCE", which in the magazine he give a focus on artscene and photograph worldwide. I'll post the stuff once I got a copy. I started to know Stefan since his brother working at T42 Design, the designer team who made a CD packaging for bands like Fear Factory, Machine Head, Slipknot, Slayer,.... most of the bands that I really like to listen long time ago.

It's a nice monday morning, really. vacation everyday, ... i'm going to make lots of illustration at home. I don't want it wear out.