Current mood:scramble
“Jom kawin nak?” Whoa, probably perkataan yang straight-in-your-face yang baru pertama kali aku terima sejak 24 tahun ni. We never know our face, we just know our name. We just talk in about few minutes, belum masuk setengah jam. And she propose me, in a sudden, selepas bertanya aku ada girlfriend or not. Yes, I don’t have one. And I feel like, I never have one. Semua macam fantasi je…. the same like when she ask me , “Got someone in mind?”. Of course I have! Everytime! But not for the girl who I really mind. She’s not. I’m ignorance blissful for her. She never mind me at all. Dan kata aku: “I wish I have lots of money this time around so I could ‘pinang’ the girl in my mind, dengan pantas! But, no, I’m broke,…. so, what’s the use to kawin? It’ll never be good.” Of course, she’s teasing me. From what she said, she’s a local who now in UK, ambik medic, and soon, will work in medic. Korang mesti kata, “Hah! Dia dah ok, tak kisah la nak kawin ngan sesapa, annonymously…. tapi aku tak sure dia boleh kata, “Jom kawin?” kalau dia betul2 kenal siapa aku. No! I’m not in the middle of self-destructive pattern person. Bukan menjatuhkan harga diri. Banyak lagi yang perlu aku buat untuk achieve dream aku. Tapi secara kasarnya, untuk define aku buat masa ni, i say i am z e r o, nothing, nil, none, zilch. So, you’re Laura, and I’m Rob Gordon. You’re Japan and I am Godzilla.
Currently listening:
Let’s Get It On [Bonus Tracks]
By Marvin Gaye
Release date: 14 January, 2003
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